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Genre : Angst,romance
Paring : Ryouchi
Disclaimer : I don't own any of them. It's a fanfic and I just write for fun.
Summary : Ryo thinks sorry is not good enough.
A/N : It's a song fic. You could say that. Mcfly-sorry is not good enough. Sorry for some errors and mistakes since English isn't my first language. I know I should be finishing my 'It's just a fling' fic. But that idea just comes to me when listening to that song again and again. I love that song a lot. Enjoy reading. Now it's just a uni-fic but I don't know-maybe I will make it a multi-chapters fic.I don't know yet.
Mcfly : Lyrics
Song
"I'm sorry but I'm getting out of this."
I couldn't believe that you would say that. I thought you were happy being with me. I watched you leave the restaurant then the small rounded gold ring that you’d left on the table. I couldn't say a word but just let you walk out of my life.
Why? Why are we breaking up?
"Hey have you seen Uchi? Do you know where he is?"
I look up from my magazine to see the owner of the voice. I don't answer the question. Of course, if that question had been asked yesterday or before, I would know exactly what to say because you'd always tell me where you were or maybe that person wouldn't even need to ask because you would be right here with me, curling up on my side on the couch.
"Hey Ryo-Chan, do you know where is Hiroki?" that person walks closer to me and asks a bit louder than before.
I shake my head. Then, I go back to reading. Of course, I am not reading- I have been thinking about you. About last night at the restaurant. Why didn't you pick up the phone when I called you several times last night and why aren't you here at the K8 rehearsal room now? Why are you avoiding me? Last of all why did you want to put this relationship to an end? And where are you right now? I hate it, not knowing where you are or what you are doing. Even when we weren't able to see each other or when you were suspended, I still managed to know all about you, what you were doing or how you were feeling because we were still together and you always share everything with me then.
"Ryo chan, what's wrong with you? You've been so quite since this morning and Hiroki seemed to be avoiding you. Did you guys have a fight?" Yasu asks me with his voice full of concern.
"What did you do to Hiroki, Ryo?" Yoko says in a brotherly tone. We all know that Yoko is very protective of you, all of us are. Because you are the baby of K8 and we all love you-especially me but why did you do that? Don't you love me too? If you don't, we wouldn't be in a relationship for too long. We were happy together but why did you wanna stop this? Aren't you happy being with me?
"Ryo, if you hurt Uchi, you know what will happen to you right?" Subaru sits down next to me and said, "Did you do something awful to him?"
Why is everyone thinking that I hurt you???
That's enough. I stand up and storm out of the room, leaving six surprised and shocked faces behind.
I'm going to look for you and talk things out. I need some explanations.
I won't start believing that this is the end.
"I told you I wanna end this relationship between us."
You say, avoiding meeting my eyes. I found you in one of the un-used store rooms, crying. I didn't know why but I had a feeling that I would find you in one of the empty rooms-so I searched all the rooms and finally found you. I guessed I know too much of you. I love you so much, that's why.
"Why?"
"Because I'm out of love with you." You answer simply, wiping the tears falling from your eyes and looking anything but me.
"Why is that?" I insist, because I don't think that reason is good enough.
"Oh god, Ryo. I don't feel anything for you anymore. And I'm tired of it so I wanna get out of this and call it off." You say sounding a bit impatient.
"Why don't you feel anything for me anymore?" I sit down beside you.
You unconsciously move a little closer to me but stop when you realize it and move back to your original place. So, I move closer to you and I notice that you try to hide the blush on your face. But that alone makes me understand that you are lying. There's no way you are out of feeling for me with the ways you react.
You don't answer my question but we sit there in silence. Finally, I break that quietness- not because it's uncomfortable because I still have a lot to ask you to figure things out. You just don't end a relationship for no reason!
"Why? Hiroki? Tell me, honestly. Why do you wanna end this? I don't wanna believe that you are out of love."
"…"
"Did I hurt you? Did I do something that you don't like?"
You shake your head as saying no.
"Then why? I didn't treat you right? Tell me, what's wrong. I'll change it."
"Nothing's wrong with you Ryo." You say softly.
"Then why?" I raise my voice a bit, getting impatient.
You shiver and move slightly away from me.
"Oh, I'm sorry, Hiro. I didn't mean to shout at you. I…I am just too confused."
I reach out for you and pull you into my embrace. You struggle to break free.
"Please Hiro. Tell me why? I couldn't handle the thought of you going away, getting out of my life. Please, don't end this. Don't change what we have. "I hold you tighter.
You stop struggling. But then you start to cry.
"Don't cry, ok? I don't wanna see you cry. It ache my heart."
I hold you chin with my fingers and lift you face up. You look so beautiful. Even with the tears soaked face, you still manage to look like an angel. I lean forwards and place my lips against yours. Your lips are so soft and wet. I kiss you oh so- tenderly and I'm glad that you kiss me back with so much passion.
Just when I think that I would never stop kissing you and all that has happened is just a joke, you pull back. I follow to put the lips against yours again but you push me away.
"I'm sorry, Ryo. Let's just end this."
"What?"
"I'm really sorry. I don't wanna get hurt anymore than I already am."
With that, you stand up to leave the room. I can't believe it. You kissed me as passionately as I am and now you said that you wanna end. There's no way you wanna end this. You are lying. Why?
"Sorry is not good enough, Hiro." I shout, pulling you back by your wrist.
I turn you round to face me.
"What the hell is going on? Why on earth you wanna break up? What the fuck did I do wrong? Why on the freaking world are you lying?"
I am about to explode Hiroki or maybe I already am. I'm going crazy here.
"You said you'd never leave me and said you’d always be there for me and with me no matter what happen."
I look into your wandering eyes.
"Look at me, Hiroki. Look straight into my eyes and tell me that you hate me."
You look away.
"I…I h...ha...Oh god, I can't say it, Ryo."
I smirk.
"See? If you don't hate me, why are we breaking up? If I have made some mistakes, I can mend it. So please, don't go." My voice gets softer as I say each word out.
"I don't hate you. But I don't wanna continue this relationship of ours."
"Why?"
"Just…just forget it, Ryo. Forget that we have ever dated or loved each other."
"How can I do it? I love you, Hiro."
"Stop loving me. It hurts." You lean forward and place a kiss on my lips. You manage to disturb me enough to let go of your hand.
"Don't make me feel guilty, Ryo. I don't wanna hurt you but I'm sorry."
You give me a weak smile before going out of the room and leaving me alone in the room.
I feel tears start to fall. I can't help it. Can't stop myself from crying. Sexy
I feel lonely. I'm alone on this world all of a sudden. You are out of my life now. You are going away. You are leaving me behind feeling miserable and helpless.
You don't hate me but want to break up. That's what hurt the most- not understanding why you wanna end it. You said you don't wanna hurt me but you already did.
Now everything is ended, isn't it?
I can't fight the feelings that this is the end.
There isn't any other way, is it?
But…..
Sorry is not good enough, Hiroki.
Why?
Thanks for reading. Comments are love.
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T_T
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*give you sweet*
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grrrrrreat. first you're making me depressed and now fat LOL XD
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Then what would you like me to do???
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